Letting go.
Going from everyday to never is a pretty big change.
I miss the way you used to make me feel special. How you would tell me i’m beautiful in the mornings when i know i’m not. I miss hearing about all the games you win, i miss asking if you score, even though i know you play defense. I miss hearing about your weekly tattoos. I miss how you try and suprise me everytime you come home. I miss your eskimo eyes and i even miss your dumb mohawk.
I miss you telling me you miss me.
I don’t miss the disappointment. I don’t deserve the way you’ve hurt me over and over. You can’t make that kind of mistake on accident, not twice. I wish i could stop thinking about you. I wish you wouldn’t come back home. I don’t know what i’m going to do when i see you again, i can’t decide. I can’t hold a grudge, it’s a burden and a blessing. I don’t want to cave. You don’t deserve my forgiveness, but forgiveness is always a option.
I’m sick of tryingg to find a outlet to fill my void.
It’s time to let you go.
